Random things about me

When I laugh I can't speak. I physically cannot speak. If I'm trying to tell a funny story I can't even get the words out! It's so annoying and Trevor likes to keep me laughing when I'm trying to tell a story so I can't talk.
I cry a lot. Not like a whiny cry when I don't get my way type of way. I tear up at anything that has emotion tied to it. Happy especially. I can't even watch Dancing With The Stars without crying because there is so much passion and emotion when people dance.. So I get emotional. If Trevor and I are watching a show and it's sad, he always looks at me to see if I'm crying. So embarrassing.
I tend to re-read and re-watch book and film/TV series. I can't tell you how many times I've read/watched the Harry Potter series. I cycle through Dr. Who, Sherlock, and Lord of the Rings quite often.  
I love baths. Love them. If I could take a bath 3-4 times a day I'd be happy. I don't of course, but I would really like to. I like to get them really really hot but then I can only handle being in them for like 15-20 minutes - maybe.
It warms my heart when people call me Lace. Seriously if you call me Lace I'll immediately love you.  
I have pretty bad anxiety. I get really sick in the car and if there isn't a bathroom nearby I panic. Like hard core. I get panic attacks and it's not fun. I didn't get it until the middle of my junior year of high school and it really escalated during college. Trevor is probably one of thee best people and most supportive and helpful to me with it. When we started dating he was soooo understanding and it helped a lot. I've had some people/friends that weren't very nice about it and it really hurts because they just don't understand.. Okay now I sound like an emotional high schooler.. 
I've wanted to go to England since I was a little girl. I've always been so captivated by it, and I literally worry that the world will end before I get a chance to visit. In all honesty I would move there if I had the chance. I'm totally an Anglophile.  
I'm super dependent. But can you blame me? I've grown up with Luke by my side pretty much at all times and then before he left on his mission Trevor and I were together. So I've never had much of a chance to try my independence! But being dependent doesn't mean I can't stand being alone. I enjoy being alone. In fact I stay up late while Trevor and Emma are asleep to have me some alone time! Except I hate being alone at night. Duh. Which brings me to..
I'm scared of everything. Like my family used to joke I was afraid of my own shadow. I hate the dark, ocean, heights, (some) animals, bugs, storms (ESPECIALLY the wind), etc. 
I hope to be a Doula one day. Growing up I NEVER felt passionate about anything. Like I wanted to work at the hospital but I can't deal with blood. I can see it okay but I can't like.. Have it all over me like doctors do. So that was out of the question. I thought about being a Dietitian but it wasn't very interesting. Then I got pregnant and had Emma. My labor and delivery was actually pretty scary for me but it was the BEST experience of my life and I just want to help and be there for other women! I feel so passionate about it and I would even do it for free! However making money would be nice :) I'm not sure when this will happen but I really hope it's within the next few years!
I really hope I don't offend anyone.. and I really don't mean to sound rude here but it really bothers me when married people decide that they don't want to hang out with anyone who isn't married. I've had several friends tell me this. When you got married did all of a sudden -poof- you no longer have anything in common with your single friends? It just doesn't make sense to me. I looove my single friends and I will NOT stop hanging out with them even if I am in a different stage of life. 
Music: My top three favorite songs are.. 1. Hey Jude by the Beatles.. duh. I'm totally naming my first born son after this song. I know it's a super popular name right now but I've planned that since middle school! 2. Somewhere Only We Know by Keane. This song just gets me. 3. Golden Years by David Bowie. This song brings out the inner '70s child in me. Current fav - Yellow Flicker Beat by Lorde. Ugh.. love this song. Also.. I hate country. Luke and I always joke around (but are we really?) when he is interested in a girl if it will work out based on if she likes country or not. 
One thing I regret doing was quitting dance. I danced for 4 or 5 years and then I had foot surgery, so I quit. I wasn't very good but I like to think I had potential. I wish I could go back and force my parents to put me in ballet when I was young. Ballet was my top favorite dance type to do. Its so elegant, beautiful, and ethereal. I wish so bad to be a ballerina. A prima ballerina! It seriously is my dream.. however most ballerinas start young so I'm afraid I've missed my chance. There is an amazing documentary about the Kirov Ballet in Russia. It's so good.
I love blogging! Well.. not really blogging per say but designing blogs! I'm not very good, I know. However I really enjoy designing and putting blogs together for my friends! I am constantly learning new things and right now I'm taking a course in HTML so someday I hope to do it to maybe make some moola! For now I love to do it for free so if you want me to design your blog I totally will! Just let me know!